Posted on 4th of October 2025
| 446 wordsSome time ago, I was actively working on my own compiler project whenever I had
spare time. Unfortunately, life got in the way, and the project sat on the
back-burner for a while. A big reason was my new solo music project, which took
up much of my energy.
Alongside recording, I’ve also been diving into
Opusmodus for composition and analysis, a wonderful
showcase of what Common Lisp can enable in creative domains.
Another factor behind the pause was that I had coded myself into a corner due to
some early architectural decisions. I even tried refactoring, but although the
codebase was still relatively small, it quickly became frustrating. The dynamic
nature of Common Lisp, while incredibly powerful, made larger-scale refactoring
feel trickier than I’d like. To be fair, that’s more a reflection of my skills
than a flaw in Lisp itself. I still deeply value its flexibility, macro system,
and directness.
Recently, I found myself needing to work quite a bit with C++ and LLVM in other
contexts, which naturally made me wonder if my compiler project should make the
jump as well. LLVM, in particular, seemed appealing: it already provides a
robust backend infrastructure, excellent tooling, and cross-platform
portability, which would spare me from reimplementing a lot of low-level
machinery. The timing also aligned with my recent switch to an Apple Silicon
machine. Since most of the existing code was tailored for x86-64, I was facing
the task of implementing a new backend for aarch64 anyway. Using LLVM started to
feel like not only a practical choice, but also an opportunity to learn its
internals more deeply.
I briefly toyed with the idea of sidestepping the C++ API by generating LLVM IR
directly from Lisp, which would have allowed me to keep most of my workflow in
Lisp while still taking advantage of LLVM. However, I figured that diving into
the C++ API would refresh my C++ knowledge and give me a more complete view of
how LLVM is actually designed to be used. At the same time, I also considered
jumping ship entirely and using a statically typed language like Haskell, which
might have made large-scale refactoring and correctness guarantees easier in the
long run.
Haskell, with its type system, has always impressed me, and projects like
Coalton make that style of typing
accessible within Common Lisp. Still, as much as I admire Haskell, it simply
doesn’t spark the same joy as Lisp.
So despite the temptations of C++, LLVM, or even Haskell, I’ve decided to
continue with good ol’ Common Lisp. It’s the language that excites me the most,
and ultimately, joy in the process is what keeps projects like this alive.
Posted on 11th of June 2025
| 109 wordsThis week has been horrible when it has come to death of musicians. We just lost
Sly Stone and Brian Wilson. Now, one of the most influental artists for me,
Douglas McCarthy from Nitzer Ebb. What a horrible year and week.
Nitzer Ebb along with Front 242 were probably the two most influental bands for
me which made me eventually to delve more deeply into the realms of EBM and
industrial. Naturally, after those came bands like Ministry and Nine Inch Nails
that also have always been super important bands for me. Nitzer Ebb were for me
the gateway drug into this sort of sonic world.
Thanks for everything!
Posted on 26th of November 2024
| 159 wordsI recently stumbled upon a beautiful quote from Cesar A. Cruz that I just wanted
to ponder.
“Art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable”
Cruz’s quote is both provocative and elusive, a tidy aphorism masking a deeper
tension. It implies a dual responsibility for art: to console those in pain
while challenging those at ease. But who decides which group we belong to? What
comforts one person might deeply unsettle another, and vice versa.
The beauty of Cruz’s idea is that it resists easy answers. Comfort isn’t
inherently weak; it can heal. Discomfort isn’t automatically righteous; it can
harm. Art lives in this paradox, in the liminal space where consolation and
confrontation coexist. Cruz’s words don’t prescribe solutions, they challenge us
to sit with the ambiguity, to feel both the sting and the salve of what art can
do. That’s its power: to disturb us into wakefulness, but also to cradle us when
we need it most.
Posted on 13th of November 2024
| 735 wordsHaven’t updated my “What I Read Between” -series in a while mainly due just
being busy in my own life but also due to the fact that I’ve reading and
rereading veeery big novels. But finally having been managed to finish those,
let’s gather some thoughts.
Fyodor Dostoyevsky: Crime and Punishment (reread)
I’ve always been a huge fan of Russian literature, or at least a big fan of
few Russian authors. Mainly due to this reason I wanted to embark on this
“rabbit hole” during the summer months. Naturally, starting with Dostoyevsky.
I’ve read Crime and Punishment a couple of times during my lifetime. First, as
a mandatory homework from school and later few times just out of pure
enjoyment and I can say that it’s possibly one of my favorite books. To
summarize, book is about Raskolnikov’s internal and external battles and the
repercussions of the crimes he has done.
I love how the “crime” aspect of this book happens only in the 100 or so
pages, and the rest (600 or so) are devoted to the “punishment”, which in
this case means battles with psychological consequences of the crimes,
insanity and isolation, ending in the moment of divine grace and beginning of
Raskolnikov’s redemption.
Great book, cannot recommend it enough.
Fyodor Dostoyevsky: Notes from Underground (reread)
Along side Crime and Punishment, Notes from Underground is also a book that
I’ve read multiple times from Dostoyevsky. Probably I stumbled upon this book
when I was a “edgy” teenager, so I thought I could see some similarities
between me and the protagonist.
Book focuses mainly on diving deep into the mind of man living in solitude. So
a majority of the book is about questioning various everyday concepts, such as
logic, reason, free will, and showing how suffering can add depth to our
everyday life.
Again, very good book that encourages reader to not just read but also to
think and reflect.
Fyodor Dostoyevsky: The Brothers Karamazov
The Brother Karamazov was one of the classics of Dostoyevsky that again for
one reason or another I hadn’t read so I finally was able to finish it and
what a book it was! Book itself focused where heavily on rich and absorbing
ideas such as spirituality and logic and their contrast. So much so, that the
plot of the book itself (while being great on its own) feels secondary to
the exploration of these themes.
While the high level topics might be the main thing behind the book, I
especially loved the way how Dostoyevsky embedded these themes in to the main
characters of the book, the Karamazov family.
Book was pretty big with lots of different events and stories (even stories
within a story) so couple of paragraphs doesn’t do it justice. Just this book
alone deserves a separate post. I would even argue that just reading the book
once doesn’t do it justice. That being said, I enjoyed the book tremendously,
and I will be reading it again in the future.
David Foster Wallace: The Infinite Jest
The Infinite Jest has always been an interesting book for me. For many
reasons. First, I’ve always thought David Foster Wallace to be an interesting
character on its own right. But at the same time, for the the literary prowess
that he had. I had read couple of works from him previously but Infinite Jest
always felt like a somewhat of a herculean task to finish. Firstly due to its
length, but also for how it was written.
I remember reading some interview from DFW, where he mentioned how he “wanted
to write a best-seller, that was meant for literature students/professors”,
which can definitely be seen in the book. The writing style in the book is
very hard and difficult. Especially to someone from whom English is not their
native language.
But overall I think the book was great. Especially the time in the current
world made the book feel sort of “prophetic” in many ways. Despite the book
itself is set in this dystopian world. But looking it with perspective of
today’s world, it’s not that dystopian.
Similarly to The Brother Karamzov, couple of paragraphs doesn’t do the book
justice, since it features hundreds of different characters, many of whom are
just coping with modern technological world filled with loneliness and
disconnection.
Again, a great book once you get into it, which definitely deserves an another
read.